heavy in thought...

Life with us has been the same the past few days. We finally got our yard finished. I am so excited. Now that we have desert landscape it's going to be real easy to maintain the up keep. With Craig traveling as much as he does I didn't have time to mow the lawn. Maybe Cody could have mowed the lawn, but I didn't want to risk him losing a limb or even death. Those are my odds with my children.

This week has been an ok week. At work we have a patient that came into our office for passing out. The doctor I assist ordered an echo cardiogram on her. The echo tech immediately saw what was causing her to pass out. The patient ended up with a myxoma the size of a golf ball in one of the chambers of her heart. A myxoma is a tumor. It was obstructing the blood flow going through the other chambers of the heart. So we needed to get a hold of a surgeon to remove the tumor right away.

I was visiting with the patient and advising her what I had to do to schedule the surgery with the surgeon. I asked her if there was anyone I could call. She instantly began to cry. She went on to tell me she has no one. One of her sons is in Africa and the other son wasn't talking to her. Which by the way he lives here in Arizona. I asked her if she had anyone to take her to the hospital or will her son take her. She then began to tell me no...he has to work because he has his own business. These are the times I don't like my position.

After this situation with this patient my mind has been reflecting on many things. First of all how grateful I am to have a wonderful family who will help me throughout any trial I have. I was thinking if this happened to me I would have so many people rally around me to help me through. Even if they can not make it to my bed side they would be there with thoughts and prayers.

Second thing I was thinking is all the members of the church who would be there with open arms. I know if I couldn't have a family member go with me someone from the church would. There would be meals and prayers in my behalf.

Third thing that came to mind was I need to be at peace with family members. Having different opinions and the disagreements with family I need to make sure not to hold a grudge. I believe that I should be in good terms with family because I don't know what is in stored for me. I would hate for any member of my family go through something like this alone because they or I was upset at each other.

I've been pondering how life is too short and I shouldn't take family or friends for granted. I don't want to offend anyone so if something major happens I am prepared to help them in time of need. As well as they are there to help me in need.

Well those thoughts have been on my mind the last few days. I have my moments of not being the person I should be, but I am trying to be a better person every day.